4 months ago I graduated college, which was hard.
2 months ago I was in D.C. with SPEAK*, doing our best to change some lives with art and my grandfather passed, which was hard.
1 month ago I had opened a show (my first comedy in 3 years!) and was headed back to Dallas while planning a move to Chicago, which was hard.
This whole time I was very anxious and very depressed. People tell you post-grad is tough, and I got a heaping pile of ouch. Change is hard, and it's much easier to follow your head than your heart. It's even harder to be honest with yourself. I was quite lonely and completely lost.
But I took a massive leap of faith and that changed everything.
2 weeks ago I bought a one-way plane ticket.
10 days ago I turned 23.
9 days ago I moved to New York City.
No job, no solid working connections, no permanent place to live.
Now, I am surviving and sometimes thriving in my new home. I have a few jobs, am actively pursuing a career, and am connecting with friends new and old in ways I never have before. It's often scary, but the little things pay off. None of these are really that big, but I'm putting my head down and doing the work. I'm still anxious, still often depressed, but I'm here. Honestly, I am proud to be "doing the thing".
Moral of the story is: If you're stuck and lost, it's okay. Take a leap of faith, gamble on yourself. I promise you are capable of more than you think. You're all you've got, so get out there and DO THE THING! Even if you just get out of bed and take a shower, it's the first step (and trust me, I have many days where this is a mammoth challenge). Go change this world, team. One step at a time.
- Brooke, SPEAK* Facilitator
These posts are created by members of the SPEAK* community (participants, friends, supporters, etc.) who have something to share! Want to share any of your art (visual, written, or video)? Send it to firstname.lastname@example.org and we'll put it up here!